A compliment!!

Few years back a doctor had instructed her... 

My child....scream....scream as much as you want....that will help you endure the pain....

But she never could scream....

And the doctor had said.... My girl you are really brave!! 

She never took the compliment.....

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Few years later....doctor told her 4 year old Son....

My child... You are so brave... Haven't seen a child not scream and cry for two consecutive injections....

And this time she took the compliment.....

Those familiar set of blank eyes!!

Once upon a time there was a Witch....the Witch loved to capture thoughts of people....people used to come to her on their own and vent out all their thoughts....and the Witch used to love looking into their eyes when they did that....

The Witch came across varied thoughts....and each one's eyes had something to offer....some that had deep strength stored in them.......Some that portrayed confusion....some that oozed negativity bordering on animosity..... Some that needed strength.....some in which there was a sense of admiration.... Some that portrayed deep attachment and closeness....some that were playful fun and carefree....Some that had the beauty of simplicity.....

And there was one set of eyes which was blank....completely blank.....the Witch...that she was a Witch.... loved to play around with thoughts of people.....and blankness was always her favorite play ground... She prided herself whenever she was successful in filling those familiar blank set of eyes.....although she never understood later that what she benefitted in doing so....but every single time she came across that blankness and filled them..... she just felt that sense of ecstatic feeling....the Witch that she was!! 

Till one day she realised that those set of blank eyes which she prided in filling this time....actually fed on her thoughts... The Witch's deep rooted thoughts....her weaknesses and her strengths....she unknowingly had eroded on her own thoughts in the process....which she had not realised....

And on realization.... when the Witch wanted to pull back her thoughts from those set of blank eyes....and peered into them....the blankness had swallowed them long....and a set of blank eyes stared back at her...again.....challenging back..... and point blank as ever!! Much that the Witch would have loved to take up the challenge....but with her thoughts eroded.....

The Witch could only abandon her thoughts with those blank eyes.... forever!! And leave them blank this time for a change.....!!

What would you miss....

So what would you miss.....He asked....

And I wondered to myself.......I don't know what I will not miss!!

I remember those last few days of graduation..... When we all knew we may never step into that place ever again.... And each one of us had gone around the campus on our bicycles clicking snaps of every nook and corner of the campus....and had hugged cried and promised each other to always keep in touch......

Just in our early twenties then....the first big reality of life had not hit us still....that life moves on.....with lightening speed....and promises don't stay.....only memories do....that too in glimpses!!

Now, when my days in Mumbai are numbered....I am just going around re-visiting all those places in the city....which had meant something in these 9 yrs...the longest time I have ever spent in one particular place....and this time in mid thirties....no more clicking of snaps....and no promises either.....

May be the answer to what I would miss is....again....a part of myself....which will always stay here....and will never get re-lived again....and will just remain as a glimpse!!